I've learned over the years that sarcasm, satire, and hip-hop don't really mesh well. It doesn't stop me from trying, though. Why? Well, "simply" put, I like to think of myself as myself meets Aaron McGruder meets The Wire meets Gurren Lagann meets R.J. Bentley's meets John Lennon meets a strip club somewhere in Baltimore--possibly Ritz Cabaret because reasons (or Beltsville. What's up, Showcase?)
For instance, I've, at times, used the phrase "pause" in songs to the point where it becomes ludicrous. I don't use it to "pause" myself before saying something "gay" (seriously, I never got how in the hell words could be considered to be "gay"). I more so use it to show the weirdness behind prefacing thoughts (I was a linguist to a degree in college and earned my B.A. in English, with a Shakespearean concentration. Words have meaning, and I like to explore and warp those meanings from time to time, just like Shakespeare et al) to avoid being considered "weird" or "gay." Calling out so-called "closeted thugs" who go berserk using these terms through subverting them and using the terms in a way so ridiculous, that it can't be seen as anything other than satire.
So, when it's all said and done, do I get a medal for my linguistic, artistic dissertations? Hell, I don't even get a cookie. What I get, however, are people, on both sides of the fence, saying that I don't know what I'm talking about and am "wrong." I guess it's because hip-hop artists are considered "real talkers," so everything they say just has to be taken at face value (even the hidden meanings. I mean, look at RapGenius and the uniformity voters and mods sometimes go for. Alternative thoughts are usually just looked at as "eh," even if they have actual proof/logic to back it up).
Now, as, pretty much, a black, heterosexual male who identifies as strictly male and also performs hip-hop in 2015, I know that it can be seen as "homophobic" for me to use "pause." I'm well aware of that. Remember, I grew up in the age of "no homo" a/k/a "The Time Where EVERYTHING That Wasn't Super Macho Was Gay...Even Though Cam'Ron Wore Pink Mink and Did Some Pretty 'Suspect' Things Himself." Hell, I've even jokingly used those terms and, at one point, called someone the "dreaded F-word."*
So, maybe, as a black, heterosexual male who identifies as strictly male and also performs hip-hop in 2015 who has let the f-bomb slip in my youth, I don't have a "right" to use potentially homophobic terms to try to speak on issues that the LBGTQIA community deal with. But, I'd like to at least try to add my two cents in. I support those who do identify as LBGTQIA. Not because it's trendy, but because it's, to me, the right thing to do. Let them get married, let them be parents, let them be happy--as long as they're not harming anyone or themselves in doing so, who gives a fuck? Is someone's sexual identity really that detrimental to your own well-being?
I'm aware that I'll probably lose a few "fans" on either side. But that's cool. Apparently, according to Facebook, I only have about 20-30 anyway, so what's a few more gone?
But, it's just a thought...pause.
-Speed on the Beat
*Yes, for those who wonder, I regret saying it. Why? Well, I should know better. It's akin to a white guy who says he's down for black people being treated fairly in the eyes of our judicial system calling someone the n-word. It, in some ways, may lessen their impact (or make people question their dedication). If that's the word you use, I can't make you stop using it. But, unless you're talking about a bundle of sticks or are British and asking for a cig, it's kinda on some unintelligible foolishness. All slurs are, for real, since they don't really show any thought behind them.