The Truth About Heartbreaker.

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Happy Speed on the Beat sez: Sit down. This may take a while.
OK, so, time to clear shit up before I get sued for slander or something.
This past week, the second #RR single, "Heartbreaker," hit the interwebs to surprisingly decent fanfare (considering that I'm the Most Unknown Unknown, anything over one "yo, this cranks" is an epic success to me sometimes). Of course, with the success and promotion of the song, there will be questions about its true purpose and intent.

The following is an extended excerpt (meaning some of this stuff was cut from the original) of an interview I did over on True God's blog that's supposed to be featured on other sites:

Q: So what exactly is "Heartbreaker" about? Is it about one woman, or is the woman a symbol, or a bit of both?


A: Heartbreaker. Wow. Well, yes and no. The song, on its surface, is directed at one woman, the "Miss Dezeray" mentioned by name. But, once you look down at the core of the song, it's more of a comment regarding how men allow women to control their lives. For instance, a guy may have a great relationship going, but he isn't happy because of XYZ, so he may go and try to find that XYZ from someone else. Of course, that someone else is usually not as interested as he thinks, or as she portrays herself to be. 
Heartbreaker cover art. Yes, the subject's face is intentionally blacked out. No, you won't see who she really is unless you're that desperate and Google it (But again, remember, she is also a mash-up of a lot of different people). Yes, I will probably receive numerous threats once people hear the entire album. No, I don't give a Turducken...

The chorus of the song, "All you heartbreakers, you better beware..." is a notice to the men that go after these "heartbreakers" to show them that this is something that'll eventually blow up in their face. It's also a notice to the "heartbreakers" themselves, as to say, "We're not as blinded by your booty and cuteness or what have you. We see the truth." Essentially, "Miss Dezeray" becomes the embodiment of the problem within many relationships--miscommunication, a desire for "something better" than the best, et cetera. On a more personal note, the "Miss Dezeray" character is a mesh of several failed relationships that I've had over the years, while still also referring specifically to the actual "Miss Dezeray."

And here comes the part True and others took out (probably because I tend to give dissertations for short answers and epics for extended ones)


Douchebag Yeezy sez: Hurry the fuck up! Shit, I'm missing swimming in Kim K's sperm bank of an ass for this?!

Who is "Miss Dezeray" in actuality, you ask? Besides the metaphorical sense, she is was sort of kinda is an acquaintance that I met through some mutual friends from high school. We shared some interests. I tried to go after her on one or two occasions, most notably--and fail-worthy--after my break-up with my ex-fiancee. Do I regret it? Yes, and no. I mean, I obviously regret going after the "20%" when I had AT LEAST 80% with my ex-fiancee, and emotionally cheating on said ex-fiancee. I also regret the fact that I was perceived as being "thirsty" by some of my peers because of my pursuit of her. But, there were some problems that I saw within the relationship that I decided to talk to other people about and blow up to the point where it appeared every little thing about my ex-fiancee bothered me. As a comforting person--or a person who loved to hear about my seemingly adventurous life, take your pick--"Miss Dezeray" lent an ear, and I gave her everything short of a picture of my dick. 

During this time of re-discovery after my separation from my fiancee [called the "Devolution and Death of the Modern Male" in the trilogy], I was two things: vulnerable and easily pissed off. This side of my "devolution" lead to "Heartbreaker" being as searing a track as it seemingly is on a personal level. There are things said in it that, looking back, I slightly regret saying them in such a coarse way. But, at the time of the recording, that's how I felt. And, well, they say that your best music comes from your deepest, most emotionally-tinged thoughts. So, I left every word in--uncensored, unfiltered--as a reminder of the man I was, the man I am, and the man I am becoming.

But, on the flip side, the dissolution of the "friendship" that we ["Miss Dezeray" and I] had allowed me to see many of the errors that I committed in pursuing her on a personal level and the effect of so-called Heartbreakers on my life.

So, in summary, because I know you didn't read all that:

1) "Heartbreaker" is about a young woman named Dezeray that I know/knew and pursued in a romantic way.
2) This young woman is portrayed in "Heartbreaker" as being, well, a heartbreaker
3) She's also used as a metaphor for, among other things, the "80/20 'Rule,'" the devolution of the modern male's relationships due to miscommunication--or lack of communication, and a symbol for all the romances/crushes/thrists in my life that aren't the ex-fiancee hopefully one day re-fiancee. [Bolded because this is one of the most important point to take away]
4) Neither one of us really gives two shits about the other these days other than a hello or happy belated. No Drake.
5) I spoke with her on several occasions to inform her that I would be discussing her in depth on this song, and speaking about our faltered acquaintanceship/frelationship on the "#RR" album. Of course, she said "I won't listen."
6) After describing everything to her about the entire thought process behind the album, she indicated that she would listen, as it piqued her interest.
7) #6 was spoke of before the actual song was released, so I'm sure she's reneged on that by now. Or doesn't give a fuck, one or the other.

Got that? Cool.
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-SOTB

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